Wow.

That's how I feel about this past month.

Babies, weddings, graduations, final finals, performances, grad school applications...

Maybe it doesn't seem like much, but I feel like my life is so different from what it was just a few weeks ago.

I feel so different.

I watched two of my closest friends get married. It was so exciting, and surreal. I remember when they first began dating, I remember listening to them both talk about one another before they started dating. I felt overwhelmed when I saw them exchange vows. I have pictures of Kris and I when we were little kids in Christmas pageants together, photos of Sarah and I in high school in our crazy little black and red outfits, and last weekend I watched them start a huge, amazing, wonderful new adventure together.

When I turned in my grad school application I panicked a little. It's finally hitting me that I really have to be a grown up now. It's time to start thinking about things in a very real and concrete sense. I am making plans that will alter the course of the rest of my life.

It's all very real to me all of the sudden. Everything seems so huge. Finances, school, work, it all seems bigger and more intimidating.

I don't know if I'm ready.