Oh, my aching back

I have let myself get old.

I am so tired today. I went to bed at 2:30. For me that's like rollin' in at 5am.

Gosh, I remember when 5am was my bedtime. I'd get home at 4 or 5 and wake up at 9 or 10 and be ready to go. Now, I want to be home by 9, and in bed by 10.

What happened to me? When did I become old and reclusive?

I used to go out all the time. I used to do things. Now, I sit in my apartment with my dog and fall asleep while watching The Office on DVD. Ugh. I feel like I'm turning into my parents. I'm worried that soon I'll get to the point where anything after 7pm is going to seem like an impossibility.

So, on to boys.

I am remembering how much I like them. Not in a romantic way, I mean, I'm not falling in love with every boy I meet, but I just like them. I like hanging out with boys. It's fun. I miss having a group of boys to hang out with. I didn't realize how much I missed that until I got to hang out with boys last night. It always makes me feel a little like Jo, from Little Women. At the end of the book after she has opened up her school with the Professor, she talks about how happy she is to be surrounded by "her boys". Not just the little ones, but the big grown up boys too. It made me miss all my old boys that I never see anymore. I have a special place for all those guys, and after last night I just got started thinking about them all again.